I worked very hard this weekend to not overindulge and managed to get to the gym and/or run all last week except Saturday on which I slept for 14 hours. I can't decide if it's depression, a defense mechanism against overeating, or my body fighting off potential infection from the mouth surgery.
The good news is that with the surgery I don't much feel like eating. The bad news is I can only eat soft things. Grilled cheese happens to top that list. I am balancing it with "light" soup. My exercise has been up and a few people have commented that I've "lost weight", which I haven't, but that at least signals that my body is shifting around and perhaps looking more toned. Which is what I really want anyway!
Truth is I am "over" weight charts. Each one reads differently and according to some I am supposed to weigh the same as my brother who is an inch taller than me and (needless to say) - a BOY! - with a different muscle ratio. Stupid charts. I understand that my doctor wants me to lose 10 -15 pounds so I'm not in the "overweight" zone. But I want to focus on tone muscles and loss of belly fat. Fuck the scale.
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Hope you're feeling better my love. Sleeping lots means you needed it! No worries about the charts. I'm apparently a million lbs overweight according to those things... Sigh.
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