Two weeks ago I ran a 28 miler in 8:12 filled with climbing, running, and joy.
Last weekend I ran a personal best for a trail half marathon - 2:17 for 13.1 miles of hills and tree roots and rocks.
These two successes encouraged me to sign up for a full 50 k (31 miles)
Thursday I got stuck in the torrential downpour during a short 5 mile run. Something happened in my mind and it clicked into a low gear that I just can't seem to get myself out of it. Like I am stuck in a rut. On Sunday I was unable to find the park that at which the ultra was start. After much driving around I bailed. After much talking to myself I took a hike at French Creek State park. It wasn't the ultra but at least I was moving.
I feel my fat belly jiggle and it gets me so upset and demotivated that it is hard to get going. "what's the use?" is the refrain stuck in my head.
I need help kick starting my weight loss again. I know I can do it because I've done it before. How I can let myself regain the 15 pounds I had lost is beyond me, butI have to do it. I have to KEEP it off.
thanks for listening
xoxo TL
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You're being too hard on yourself. I saw you less than 2 weeks ago. I SAW you. I'm not sure where this weight is, but I can tell you, it's gotta be muscle. I've seen you through this and I KNOW what I'm seeing. You are not the same as you were when your journey began. NOT AT ALL.
ReplyDeleteI don't get it. But, I am here for you too. ILU